My brother died a year ago. I have suffered 6 bereavements in 4 years. Each one I eventually accepted and re-transitioned my life. Varying pain.
But, when my brother died I wasn’t prepared for the pain, the fear, the adjustment, and it’s taking longer than any other bereavement. Then, thanks to another sibling, the family home went too quickly, where they hardly visited, but I was there and with my brother several times a week and weekends. It felt like a double whammy loss. The bond was strong with this brother but when he died, it hit me just how strong it was. It hit me abruptly that I’d never see him ever again in this life, ever. Whilst I get on working and doing things, living normally, I can’t help the pain and slight panic when I can’t pick up the phone to him, hear his voice or pop to see him. Christmas every year was special. The hurt and fear has been so very hard. This grief has been the most raw and difficult one to deal with and it’s still hard
Rosinamo
Hi so sorry for the lost of your brother, I have also lost a brother and a sister, mum, dad, loosing my brother seemed to be the worst thing for me I think because it was so sudden and we where close ,it’s so hard I know ,but this group is a great place to chat and get things off your chest as everyone has lost someone and we all understand each other, it’s not easy to talk to family all the time as you know they have their own lives , I hope you can try and get on with your life and you find some comfort soon
Thank you. I am able to. I just still feel overwhelmed when there’s something that happens I need his wisdom on and just to sit chatting with him generally for a few hours several weekdays and weekends. But I understand he is now in a better place