It’s half term where we are so I have been entertaining my two boys (9&7yr) all week-it’s also 10weeks today since I lost my dad. I thought I was doing well then my mum phoned this morning and offered to take the kids for hours (I snapped that offer up because I’m exhausted)… I took them to a party this morning and just dropped them at my mums; as soon as I closed that car door, the tears came! I had no warning and don’t know why. I drove 10minutes home, crying. I feel exhausted and also relieved at not being responsible for the kids for 3hrs (a first in a very long time)… I never saw this wave coming but sitting here now feeling really sad and missing my dad.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your dad. Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m just giving your thread a gentle, “bump” for you - hopefully, someone will have some thoughts to share.
Take good care,
Ah @Buddleia9 I think this is often the case, we get blindsided by a wave of grief when we least expect it. All you can do is give in to the tears, let them fall and feel the loss. Sometimes it feels better afterwards…xx
You cry until you can’t cry anymore it’s part of grieving it’s that love you had for your dad that bond that can never be broken he’s still with you x
POEM: ANNIVERSARY WAVE
Shopping & working, I’m ok Coping well actually, getting a lot done.
Then it’s Friday… And I’m back there, the day you died.
Hoovering & online banking, today’s a good day. Things are slowly on the up.
Then it’s the 18th…And I’m back there, the date you died.
Gardening & summer holidays, smiling and laughing. Fun times with the kids.
Then it’s August… And I’m back there, the month you died.
A frail widow, her hearts’ taken a heavy blow, an ambulance is called.
Then we’re in Resus… And I’m back there, where you died.
The true sadness of your anniversary doesn’t come around once a year, it’s every week, every month, every year, every hospital visit…Then I’m back there, when you died.
Buddleia Nov 2023