Since the passing of my beloved wife of over 41yrs I want to go to sleep and stay asleep indefinitely, because in my dreams my wife is still with me, alive and smiling and laughing, loving and kissing, hugging and caressing. But when I awake, reality hits home and I realise that’s all I have left of her, is the memories and my dreams. Being awake and I am reminded that’s all I have left and the thought of carrying on without her hurts like no hurt I have felt before, it goes very deep and I honestly don’t know how much more I can carry on without her in my life.
This brings me to the question of can anyone on here interpret dreams? In last night’s dream I met the ‘Angel of Death’ the ‘Grim Reaper’ and I fought him, not because he was coming for me, (because when he does come for me, I will offer no resistance), but he was coming for Debra, my loving wife. I am now worried that she will not be with me in my ds no more, as I don’t know if he has taken her for good, because during our fight I woke up and could not go back to
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Hi Chris, no, I can’t interpret dreams but I feel sure that Debra will always be in your dreams. That is because she will always be in your heart & in your head. You will dream of her again.
Bless you, take care
I am with you all the way with this message,I would gladly fall asleep and not wake up to end this nightmare we are in.I honestly feel like there is no point in life anymore without the one person that made you alive made you so happy made her world around you.I miss you so much my darling ,come and get me to be with you please.Michael.
Oh Michael, you are in constant agony, I wish there was some way we could help you (although I know there is only one thing which would make us all feel better, but that isn’t going to happen sadly). Losing the love of your life is heartbreaking
Yes it is I am distraught with grief,never felt like this before,it is constant ,sick feeling ,the sudden outburst of crying and longing to be with her again.I do not know how to handle this day after day.Hate being alone without her,my life is going nowhere.The price we pay for loving too much is the hurt we are suffering now.Michael.
Hi MickeyBoy, I totally get it and what I have found worse since my dream and battle with the Grim Reaper, I have not had a dream the last 2 nights with Debra in them, in fact I don’t recall having any dream the last 2 nights. I feel exactly the same as you, living without Debra is not living as far as I’m concerned, it’s just existing. Everyone keeps saying you have to be strong but, in my mind I’m thinking but what if I don’t want be strong anymore. When I tell them my feelings, I’m told that I am selfish for thinking of ending it all, but my twisted mind just thinks aren’t you the selfish ones for wanting me to continue with this pain, you just don’t want to feel the same pain I am currently suffering from.
When my wife did pass, the widow of a friend and colleague of mine contacted me as she knew exactly what I was going through since my friend had only passed away last year, so her pain was fresh in her memory. We have continued to keep in touch since and her words of comfort has really helped me. She told me the other day that she has started seeing someone else, but taking it slowly. When she told me this, it did give me a bit of a lift, as the experiences she was explaining to me how she felt losing her husband, mirrors exactly my feelings of losing Debra, so there is hope there, even though at the moment I struggle to imagine it getting any better.
Hi Chris. I am now seeing someone else too.
My beloved husband died over 3 years ago and it left me with an overwhelming loneliness and losd even though I have lots of friends. My friends dragged me out and I met my present partner but it is not easy. You never know how you will feel from one day to the next and sometimes a memory of Ron will hit me like a wave and I just feel I should not be trying to make new memories. Life still feels lonely even though my partner is lovely. Sometimes I feel he deserves someone who can love him full on as I can’t promise anything at the moment. I just can’t imagine ever feeling the same about someone other than husband.
But time will tell and it is lovely to have someone and something to put a little joy back in my life. Life has strange ways of helping us through this horrible journey.
I’m truly very happy for you, hearing stories like yours is what keeps me going now. I love it, it gives me that little bit of hope. Being alone until my passing not only worries me but also scares me. I push on hoping that one day I too will find happiness, but as you said you can’t wipe out all the happy years of being with our chosen love starting out on our life’s journey. I feel that wanting that companionship and security that I had with my late wife is testimony to the strong love and bond we had for each other, that living a life without that again doesn’t bare thinking about. Wishing you and your new partner all the best and my love for your future
Thank you Chris. I am sure in time that you will find a level of peace and may even meet someone who can give you companionship and hopefully the love you deserve… They always say that it happens when you least expect it and I truly believe that.
Good luck and I wish you well although I know your beloved wife will never leave you.
I am reading your message this morning having my first cup of tea,we are on the same page my friend,why be here if we are so unhappy,it is just existing not living in the true sense of that word.Living was with our dear wives.I drift from one day to the next,miserable and lonely .Do I greet waking up with joy ,no.Michael.
I really hope that we will both find a way to move forward butty, I really do because like you, I find that impossible to imagine, but hearing that others, who felt exactly the way we do today, were able to find peace and a new love. MickeyBoy I hope that you will carry on battling our own fight alongside each other. I know each one of us is different, but if you feel things are getting the better of you, come on here or other social media and vent off, I find it helps me to find the strength to carry on for another day. You can tag me in if you like and maybe with each other’s help we will come through to the other side. Take care butty
Wishing you and your new partner all the best and my love for your future 