I’m struggling to sleep tonight.
Can’t find any comfort at all.
I’ve cried big snotty sobs;, I’ve chatted to M which I do every night but tonight it’s heavy and hard and painful.
I ache from missing him and wanting him with me.
Anyone else up ??
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Hi
I too talk in my mind to my late husband and get same emotions.
Yes I am awake
Often am. Was trying to keep awake as due to take anti biotic at 1 am but woke an hour later so can’t sleep.
Alert. Not sobbing at moment but sometimes happens. Especially like now can’t find what I need and realize he would have been able to help me and that makes me feel so alone. My son’s don’t seem to want to help me any more or can’t.
This bereavement brain fog.
horrible.
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I usually get about 5 hours a night now , it was 3. Last night i weny to sleep about 11 and was awake again at 3 and that was it ! It is the situation. We cannot switch off our thoughts. I take an anti histamine tablet about once a week so i get a longer sleep, they are non addictive and gives my brain a rest. Shouldnt take daily though . You need the ones cetrizline if you want to try them.
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@Enorac its wicked isn’t it as I go to bed tired but once the lights off- brain gets busy .
I’m sorry your son isn’t helping. So tough when you loose the person that was there for you no matter what
Xx
I just can’t fall asleep tonight despite being exhausted! I’ve managed to stay away from alcohol for the last 2 nights so I’m desperate not to go back to that. I’ve tried herbal tea and Phenergan (sleep-inducing antihistamine) but my brain won’t switch off! Only 7 weeks and 2 days since I lost my wonderful husband, Andy, and already had messages from his 3 adult children, asking to see the will and what money they will get!! I’m so hurt and sad that they’re responding this way especially as all of them have been saying I’d always be in their lives! Feel like I’ve now lost them as well as Andy. I know he would be disgusted with their behaviour. I don’t want to be in this position! I want him back, I miss him so much 
That sounds very tough on you.
It’s such early days and with so much to have to sort out emotionally and sadmin, it’s no wonder sleep evades us.
Do you have someone who can support you or you can talk to?
@Ginger68 I do hope you managed to get some sleep eventually. Alcohol is a habit which takes time to break (usually 40 days), hopefully you can stick with your decision but if not, don’t beat yourself up about it. There is too much going on in our heads and we need a crutch atm.
As for his kids, this seems to be a recurring theme on this platform. Maybe there always was an undercurrent of resentment and they hid it well from him?
I sometimes wonder why his brother and sister-in-law have so much to do with me, I only met them 3 times while he was alive. Perhaps one day it will stop, but we seem to get on well. I’ve had no contact from his daughter since I gave her his ashes, but communication works both ways; there doesn’t seem much to contact her about now.
This new life is tough to navigate, and every week seems to bring a new challenge.
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Thank you for your replies and support. I am lucky that I have a very good support network around me but at the end of the day, it’s only me who can sort through everything so however good my friends are, I’m still very much alone especially as the one person who would know what to do is no longer here! His children have always used him as the Bank of Dad so I shouldn’t have been surprised, I suppose, just didn’t expect it quite so soon! 