My mum died 10 days ago now. But it still doesn’t feel real, the day she died i cried and cried but since then I have just felt numb. I want to grieve properly so badly but I just don’t have any emotion in me, its like my body is putting up all its defences and not letting me understand the reality of it.
Don’t get me wrong, I am heartbroken. I am only 20 years old and the thought of the rest of my life without my mum makes me feel sick. But I can’t accept it and I know i need to in order to have any chance of moving on. Just getting out of bed is a struggle these days.
My mum was my best friend, and we did absolutely everything together. The thought of never doing things together again scares me.
Please someone help me, I don’t know how to accept it. Is what I’m going through normal??