Since my partner passed away just over a 1 month, every day is hard , cant sleep , cant eat, tried working but that is hard to do. I feel lost and lonely all the time . Everything i try sorting stuff out , doesn’t seem to work out . I might as well be dead too . This grieving is killing me from the inside . Managed to get a phone call appointment with Dr, still waiting. Everything is scrap at the moment.
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Hello @Ricky68
I’m so sorry to hear about your partner. I can hear the pain you are in and I want you to know that you are not alone.
It sounds like you’re looking for support and I’m glad that you’ve been able to talk about how you’re feeling here. We know that a lot of people experience suicidal thoughts when they are grieving. We have a video about it here which you might find helpful:
https://griefguide.sueryder.org/support/suicide
There is lots of other support out there, and I would really encourage you to reach out and speak to someone about how you are feeling.
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It’s really good that you’ve reached out to the doctor. If these thoughts of suicide become overwhelming, please call 999.
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You can call 111 and choose the mental health option to speak to a trained mental health professional (England, Scotland and Wales only)
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Samaritans are available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123.
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Shout are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text REMEDY to 85258 and talk to them about anything.
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You can also find your local NHS urgent mental health helpline.
I really hope you find the community to be a support to you too.
Take care,
Seaneen
@Ricky68
As I know, grief is such a powerful thing. I’m probably not the best person to give advice as I’m grieving too, I lost my Mum nearly 5 months ago and we were really close and I’m struggling day to day.
You do need to try and get some support, keep contacting the doctors, ask for details of somewhere you can access some counselling, someone to talk with. Do you have any family / friends who you can talk to, cry or whatever you feel, you really need to reach out and keep trying.
I understand what you’re saying, I feel like my heart has ripped out, inside I have no idea how to feel happy again but I do know that you have to keep trying. I’m sure your partner would want you to be OK.
Do keep looking on here and post, people will try and support you the best way they can but you keep trying the doctors for starters.
So sorry. Hope you get your appointment soon. We’ve all been through this and understand how very hard it is.
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