ok so when this is all over then there is a little bit of light i say if the jobs still on offer go for it. More then anything you need to be able to get out the house a little. can i ask how old you are or is that rude you said early retirement so your younger then i thought sorry
That’s if they still need me, I am 59
i am sorry Richard i did think you were a lot older. so your relatively a fit and young man so going back to work is on the table.
Yes I guess so, never say never
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exactly great attitude to have. A few of us on this site have lost our soul mates early and now we have what feels like a life time with out them. So for them we should do our best to be happy and take them with us on every journey xx
It would be strange to go back to work now, that’s if it did happen, got used to not getting up early
lol i never could get up early so always picked work around my inability to get out of bed. Going back to work is going to be best thing for you. Like i said i hadnt realised you were so young you dont want to spend the rest of your life sitting in a chair watching daytime tv or doing the garden. No one in their right mind can cope with loose woman and judge rinder surely 
Karie if had to do that I would have gone mad, don’t watch day time tv, not watching a lot, Jean and I used to watch films, just can’t concentrate to watch lately
i understand. me and chip liked the chase casualty CSI things like that we liked a good horror film too i know weird
Now I like the chase, Jean used to say to me don’t no why you watch that, they never win anything, now if I watch it and they win I go over to one of her photos and say see they did win, told you I am going mad
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Karie, I am going to have a beer and off to bed, try and get some sleep, thanks for the chat tonight, good night god bless,
Richard xx
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Never going to sleep tonight, 8 weeks tonight that I lost my Jean , and I miss her so much, it still can’t believe she is not here, and everyone says that you will begin to cope with your loss, I don’t think so, I can’t live without my Jean, and lately it seems even worse, we had so much we wanted to do and now its all gone, yet another night of trying to go to sleep without Jean next to me, I wish I could be with her just for one more night just to tell her that I love her so much, and give her a cuddle, I miss those moments, and I know I will never have them back, Jean was my world and I don’t know how I am going to go on without her, One of Jeans favourite films was Ghost and I started to watch it only because she told me to watch it and I had to stop it, I just got half way through and I was in such a state I couldn’t watch anymore, you probably all know the film, but I haven’t seen it before, very emotional.
Richard
Hi anyone awake, nearly 1o clock can’t sleep
Hi, All I can say is at your stage I felt everything you are saying.
I was told part of it was shock.
You need to get your sleep, what worked for me is Going into another bedroom & herbal sleeping tablets at bedtime & having a nap in the afternoon.
For me my husbands death was the worst thing that has ever happened, nearly a year on I have days when I still feel like you do and then days when I feel I can cope, I’ve got a new routine which has helped bring some stability.
I want to believe that this is only a temporary parting & I will be with him again wherever he is.
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Morning everyone only just back on briefly to check in on you all. Keeping busy if you can is the only way to get through. Hope you got some sleep last night Richard Let us know how things go with the doc and have you thought about doing some volunteering once this lockdown is all over ? You will see your husband again Flower Garden this just cannot be all there is. Kate, Steph, SanW and Karie hope you are feeling a bit better today. Off to check my report before my meeting at 10am and speak to a few staff afterwards re annual salary increases - that will be joyful ! as they are not getting what they had hoped they would but then they are lucky they have a job. Please take care of yourselves. Sending love and hugs to you all xxx
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Hugs coming right back at ya Carolann. 
Morning everyone,
Hope all ok, sending love x
Hi all have had to take a coffee break before I explode at some staff. Moaning because we will only be giving an inflation increase on salaries this year and no bonuses. Given the state of the economy they are all very lucky we are still in jobs and they are well paid compared to so many people. How did you get on with the doc Richard ? How is your day going so far Kate, Karie, Steph, Sanw and FlowerGarden ? xxx
Hi carolann,
Not too bad, been mainly on here chatting, it’s cold today so won’t be pottering in the garden, just eating too much chocolate 
Your job must be quite stressful, at least you can come away from it a bit working from home x
Sun has his hat on here so I am sitting with a coffee looking out on my garden 
I am an early retiree and usually have a busy schedule, including voluntary work. But that’s on hold as I have to help with childcare as my sons wife is a front line nurse in the care of COVID patients and my son classed as an essential worker. My grandson is only 7 and his world is a bit upside down at the moment. Life presents us all with challenges and from somewhere we find ways to deal with them.
Here’s to a big group hug 
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