I was doing not so bad I thought. I was tidying up the kitchen when I saw the mixing bowl my beloved wife Marian used to mix the Christmas cake ingredients in.
It was like a punch to my tummy and all the feelings just flooded all over me again.
Will this pain ever go, I think not. She really was/is the love of my life, my soul mate.
We just missed our 55th wedding anniversary and I just want to hold her again and tell her how very much I love her as we used to do everyday but that has stopped.
Just had 3 weeks in hospital with yet another major Crohns flare up and come home to an empty bungalow apart from our Siamese cat Dobbie.
Really cannot see ahead at all at this moment, just pain and hurt missing my darling marian.
I have to write this down hoping it eases the pain a little. Surely 20 months it should ease up?
@jomar what a lovely picture of you both. When you’ve been with someone along time, it makes sense that the pain lasts longer. Your life is essentially wrapped around that person & when they’re gone, they leave a space no one can fill. Warmest wishes to you after your recent illness. X