Christmas is so hard

[Seaneen]

Hello @Natalie10,

Thank you for reaching out and sharing your feelings with us. I can hear how heartbroken you are and how unheard you are feeling by your family.

I’m sure someone will be along to share their support. In the meantime, I just wanted to connect you with @vivmt. Their sister died suddenly last year, and you may understand some of what each other are going through. They posted this thread earlier:

Things are worse

My sister died suddenly last year. I thought nothing could be worse than the first year. Turns out the second year sucks worse. I feel like theres a heavy weight on all our family. My mum, brother, brother in law and myself are thoroughly miserable at the thought of Christmas. We’re pretty much ignoring it. Im going to see my mum 200 miles away but i do that in school holidays anyway (im a teacher). My brother and brother in law are both staying put and alone. My whole family just feels empty.…

You’ve mentioned having thoughts of not wanting to be here. If these thoughts get overwhelming, or you feel you can’t keep yourself safe, please do get urgent help by calling 999. You can also talk to the Samaritans anytime on 116 123 / jo@samaritans.org. If you’d prefer support over text, Shout are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text REMEDY to 85258 and talk to them about anything.

Take good care and keep reaching out,

Seaneen