Christmas sing & dance rehearsals have began at the community field,they’re selecting best singers & traditional dancers i can hear drums, flutes & horn trumpets, they are rehearsing for christmas inter-clan competitions, I am hurting & crying, I wish i can join the singers, I can sing, I used to lead praise & worship at church, on local crusades & on street evangelism. when my dear husband drowned the pastor asked me to stop ministering ,he respects man made rules more than GOD , he said i should get deliverance from God first. 2yrs have passed ,he hasn’t called me back in ministry.
I am going to cover up, cover my son & we go watch the rehearsals. it hurts to be excluded from the community & your people b’se of something no one has power to stop from happening. No one wants to be a widow so early in life. That’s me in photo ,the lead singer on street evangelism, it was in SEPTEMBER 2023 my husband drowned on 2nd November 2023. NOW I WALK IN SHADOWS.
I’m really sorry you’re facing such a difficult time. I’m sure someone will be along to share their thoughts, but I just wanted to say thank you for bravely sharing this with us. Keep reaching out,
Thank you for sharing this with us. I also know how it can feel extra hard as a musician myself. When you hear other musicians playing you want to join in. But with the extra grief, it must make it hard for you. You are always welcome to come on here to talk about it. Take care x
It’s will be 2 years 3 months since I lost the love of my life. It will be my third Christmas without her. How do I feel?
Well I suppose I am better, will be with my supportive family on Christmas Day, lucky enough to have good friends and I have been getting out and about. However I still think of her every day and when it comes to it, when I shut the door at night I still feel lonely. I have a photo of her on my mantelpiece and talk to her through it now and again.
I still shed tears in private,at music, some sad situation in the news or a programme, I do wonder if I am still depressed but in other situations I can laugh too. Like can be complicated.
Luckily I have grandkids, so brilliant to have them, but how I wish she could see how they are growing up.
So I won’t be alone at Christmas, I am fortunate others might not be so, but she will always be on my mind. This will not change
