Christmas is near. Last Christmas my first without H was bad and I feel this one will be the same. I don’t have the heart. It means nothing without my H. I received 6 Christmas cards last year and didn’t open them. What would they have said “happy Christmas”. It wasn’t happy and I couldn’t wait for it to be over. Family will be expecting us to join in and look for gifts smile and laugh opening them. It just has no meaning for me now. I know ignoring it will not be an option I get through the day the best way I can
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This will be my first without Martin. Christmas was everything to us, we were like two children. I’m dreading with my whole heart and soul and don’t know how I will get through… seriously considering taking a sleeping pill and just stay in bed on that day……we would head out and buy our real tree, spend the evening decorating it and it was stuffed around the bottom with gifts…. It’s never going to be the same again…. Some days I think I’ll die with a broken heart… sending love to you all… x❤️
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I’m dreading it, my first without my beautiful sue
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Hi Dottie72,
I know your Martin was a lot younger than my husband, and my heart aches for you. I feel the same as you about dying of a broken heart. It’s seven months since my husband died and I don’t feel any different from the moment he took his last breath. My heart is crushed. This will be my first Christmas without my lovely husband too. We’ll just have to face it best we can and then the New Year looming. I think I dread that just as much. Take care lovely.X
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Dottie72
I always wonder about people dying of a broken heart. I feel my heart is broken in two but here I am nearly two years after the death of my soul mate hale and hearty (well sort of) so no in my case I don’t die of a broken heart. Love to all who feel like this.
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I’m the same Nel this will be my second Christmas and I feel exactly the same as you. Just can’t be bothered with it anymore. I too will just be wishing it over xx
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Hi,
Been thinking about this loads myself lately.
This will be my 1st Xmas without my partner who passed in Feb. We had a 4 year old who will also be 5 in Dec. Am absolutely dreading it, it was our most favourite time of year especially when she came along 9 days before Xmas.
It’s my bday, daughters and partners all in Dec not sure if my heart can take the pain of it all.
Am sending u so much love and support xxx
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I won’t lie my first Xmas was dreadful but I got though it and you will as well . Just think what you partner would want you to do and go with it he will be with you take some comfort in that .
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This will be my first Christmas without my Wife. We would go round to her mums with the rest of her family. I’m dreading this year as I don’t want to go round to see her family without my wife (even thinking about it the tears start flowing)
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Sending you a big hug xxx
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I was just thinking about this the other day. Mum LOVED Christmas and getting the decorations up. Me & Dad have already decided we’re not putting up a tree this year, maybe just the crib (Nativity scene).
Mum’s favourite Christmas song was Jim Reeves ‘An Old Christmas Card’. The tune came into my head last week and I suddenly realised she won’t be there to hear it this year and I just burst into tears.
I hate Christmas anyway. Humbug.
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This will be my second Christmas without my lovely Martin, he was ill during Christmas, in hospital few days later then died in hospital 13 Jan. He loved buying all the food and drink beforehand and he’d decorate the Christmas tree, seeing Christmas bits in shops now makes it so hard to shop, guess I’ll food shop online from now until new year. I don’t bother with decorations now, it’s not the same without him, nothing is the same, life is a constant battle everyday, I so wish I was with him, cannot live without him. Even though I have family and friends Martin is all I want.
Amy x
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This will be my 2nd Christmas without my beloved husband.
Last year he died 4 days before Christmas Day, so was still in shock and I can’t remember much about it. This year will be difficult for sure. I will be with family so will put on a brave face, and be relieved when it’s over. Christmas will never be the same again . The whole of December was traumatic last year as he was so ill, so I am dreading the lead up and all the adverts etc.
I am finding I am not coping well anyway, but we have no choice and have to carry on albeit feeling sad and lonely . I will never get used to being without him.
X
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This will be my worst ever Christmas. My first one without y wee wife by my side.
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i understand 
my first christmas without my lovely Brian. We used to go to my brothers with all nieces and nephews but i cant go this yea. Dont want to put my saddness on the kids. Just got over the first anniversary without him. Never expected him not to be here:cry:
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If anyone has read my own post about Xmas, you will know I’m opting out of family do’s.
I miss Penny every day, so why would I go somewhere when I would miss her more?
My Xmas day will be spent on the cliffs at Flamborough and Bempton, with my memories of Penny, my dogs (dressed in tinsel) and my Xmas lunch in a haversack. I’m really looking forward to it.
If you live close enough, feel free to come and join me, or make your own alternative Xmas.
Only 74 more days to go!
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Good lad, you do what makes you feel good 