So I feel I have gone in a circle and not doubt that will continue!!!
In my deep thinking. Like I do 
I feel directly after he went I still felt him close, then the grief took over and felt he was slipping away. But just recently he is returning into my soul, my heart. Which is lightening the load, he is sharing my grief, which has probably been the missing link in this time.
I’m no fool I know this can change at a drop of a hat but for today I will feel this precious feeling, this moment. 
I really wish I could have felt my partner still close after he died suddenly but I couldn’t feel him anywhere. I just felt a cold, empty, lonely feeling and a silent house. 5 months into this nightmare I don’t feel any different. I’ve pleaded with him and God to give me some sign to tell me he was looking out for me but can’t feel anything. I miss him so much. It’s good that you feel your loved one is with you again. It must be so comforting.
Sadly, I feel like you. I can’t really feel him here at all. I’m thinking of going to a medium. A friend did and got told all sorts of interesting things by the medium, that only she could know. She felt very comforted after the session.
The day after my Husband died ,suddenly and totally unexpected ,a little pied wagtail appeared in the garden ,never seen it before. On the day of the funeral,it came and sat on the skylight,staying there until we left. On the way ,a Red Kite appeared in the sunroof and stayed with us all the way there. This is my sign my Husband is around. He loved birds and fed them everyday.
It gives me some comfort because I know if there is any way he can look out for me,he will.