Hello @bellc,
Thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing your story with us. I’m so sorry for everything that you have gone through. You are not alone. You might want to connect with @Omi, who shared this thread recently:
You deserve a space to talk and to be heard. We offer free counselling if you feel some one-to-one support might help. You can also make an appointment with your GP and ask to be referred to counselling or other support services in your area.
Take good care and keep reaching out,
Seaneen