Controlling tears when I'm out

Being disabled I can’t go out alone, so I can usually be distracted but not always and today was one of those days. Paul was my carer besides being the best husband I could have wished for so I decided to keep the car and my daughter drives it because my mobility scooter is in the back with a fitted hoist to get it in and out. For some reason it just didn’t feel comfortable not having my husband driving the car today and I was crying before we even got to the shops. I didn’t want to go home which proved to be a mistake as I was quietly sobbing round the shops until my daughter took me home anyway! I know I should never have left home in the first place because here I feel really safe. I don’t want to dread going out because my family worry enough but Paul’s only been gone 9 weeks. I already feel like he’s been gone forever and I’m missing him so much. I hope you are all coping as well as can be expected.X

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I have days like that… quietly sobbing at work, hoping no one will notice, but also wanting someone to make it all better…
I can’t offer you a solution, just please know you’re not alone xx

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I was like that today, too. After 7 months I sometimes feel I’m getting used to it, but tonight at my yoga class I had to go to the loo to blow my nose and wipe away my tears. Don’t think anyone noticed as I have long hair which partially covered my face!

sorry for your loss it sucks my husband passed away 15 weeks ago with lung cancer over the years davy had a few different cancers but this time his body had had enough we had been together 48 years i find the hardest thing is well one of many things that i wont see him again or talk to him as i know we all will feel like that for me its the sadness that i feel is so hard to deal with it is just so much but i hope one day to not feel the pain so my thoughts are with you and hope that every day that comes can lessen your pain

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