It will be 5 months in 4 days since I lost my partner, everyone keeps telling me how well im doing, how strong I am but truth be told I feel like im slowly falling apart. It is so draining keeping up this front of “being fine”. The worst thing is I can tell people avoid speaking to me because they’re sick of being around someone who’s so sad but I just can’t seem o pull myself out of this hole. It feels like everyone has pulled away from me and I have no idea what to do. To top it off my grandma died at the beginning of last month when I had just got back working and it’s her funeral two days after his death anniversary. On the 9th it would have been our anniversary too and all these firsts without him here are so so hard. Feels like my soul is crushed and as much as people have tried supporting me, I feel like they can never understand how I feel.
To my beautiful angels in heaven please keep watching over me, I love and miss you with every beat of my heart
first it’s not been long since you have lost your partner 5 months is still raw give yourself time to grieve properly and don’t worry if people are avoiding you real friends will be by your side it’s never a easy subject to talk about with people because your sitting there thinking all sorts my partner has passed 5 years ago and I can tell you it hurts the same way it did at the beginning too but we just learn how to carry on it must feel for you at the moment that you can’t think of the future but I promise you that you will learn how to live