My 19 year old daughter died 3 months ago. She had epilepsy for 5 years. She just started University and she died alone… My heart is broken and my head feels that it will explode. I can’t cope with out speaking to her. She was my only daughter and I was a single mother for a long time and she was my best friend. I am so lost and alone.
Hi my daughter died to suicide just over a Month ago…she was just 14 the shock has started to wear off and reality is sinking in, not looking forward to what’s ahead, but I have chosen to survive it so will try hard to make the best I can now , they don’t want us to hurt, your not alone xx
So so sorry for your loss. It’s unbearable it truly is. My daughter Caitlin died in September on a university field trip to Tanzania- she just didn’t wake up one morning. She was 20 and our only child. I know I will never learn to live with this loss - it’s just too great. I do best when I literally only think of the next few hours or the day I’m living as I don’t feel I have any future now. I lived for my daughter we were incredibly close and I know she knew she was loved beyond anything.
I know that people do survive such horrific loss, but I suspect it is just literally survival and not truly living. I miss her so terribly all I think about is being reunited with her one day and hoping and praying that it won’t be too far away.
Sending love and hugs xxx
What terrible times for you all. I don’t have children so I can’t begin to imagine your pain.
I do understand the pain and shock of sudden and unexpected loss . Take time to grieve for your loved ones, don’t be rushed into making decisions about anything, belongings , plans , if you can find somebody impartial to talk to do so.
Family and friends mean well but they have no idea how you feel. All they wanted me to do was " get back to normal" normal has gone .
Wishing you well.at this saddest of times. Sadme
Thanks, for your message. I am trying to remember all the good memories we shared. I just wish I could speak to her once more.
Sending you love and hugs as well, I know that my daughter knew I loved her so much I just miss her so much she was brave and kind and had a heart of gold. I was lucky to be her mum
Thank you Milsmum, I really understand how you feel. I’m having a calmer few hours now ( I’ve been to the grave in the stormy weather as it makes me feel I’ve done something for her), but I have felt worse than ever this week- I just miss her so very much. It’s so impossible to contemplate any future without Caitlin in it- it’s truly unimaginable. I try my best to concentrate on just the day I’m trying to get through and no more as that is all I can cope with. In truth the more we love the more we hurt and there is comfort in knowing that our daughters knew how loved they were- at least that is something. Sending hugs xxx
It is sometimes 1 minute at a time yesterday was hard as for a long time it was me and my daughter and we always treated ourselves on valentine. I just keep thinking of all the joy she brought to me but like you my heart is breaking. Take care and sending you hugs
Oh bless her - I took valentines flowers to Caitlin’s grave yesterday as I couldn’t bear the idea of her missing out. She was such good company and such a dear soul and we, like you and your daughter, spent so many happy times together. It’s so heartbreaking to think that there will be no more.
Thinking of you xxx