I lost my husband this time last year. We were separated but we were still close and had been my soul mate for nearly 30 years. I watched him die and then I went off the rails alcohol wise as if blocking it out. I couldn’t cope with my wee doggy whom I loved dearly and had to give him away. I ended up in hospital for a month due to liver damage so when I came out I was lost. Numb even. Now I am struggling to cope with the grief without alcohol and my doggy. I have a son whom I see occasionally and a sister who I don’t really keep in contact with. I have started a new job after a long few months of recovery but now the grief of losing him and the loneliness really has set in. It comes over me in waves along with missing my wee dog. It’s the night times that are the worst when I’m completely alone and little things remind me of what I have lost. I send my love to everyone on here. You are not alone. This is the first time I’ve opened up as to how I feel.
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That’s such a brave post, @Lesley23 ; and so sorry for your loss. To get through all that, and start a new job must have taken a lot of willpower and courage. Take care of yourself.
I too think you’re a brave lady. Hope you manage with the job ok. Maybe in time you might get another dog if you’re not working long hours. Can you join some social activités at the weekends like ramblers ?
Thankyou Catrin and Woolly for your responses. I don’t feel brave, far from it but you have to try and get on with things. I’d love to get another doggy but it would be unfair on it with my hours. I might try weekend groups to see if that helps. 
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