one year ago i found out my best friend has killed himself whilst away at uni. it’s the anniversary of his death and it’s hit me like a truck. i’ve been texting him every day and i just can’t stop crying. none of our mutual friends can cope with talking about it so i have no one. i have to go to his memorial bench and tree for the first time next week and i feel so lost. i’m so angry at him but so sad. i wish it was me not him.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your best friend, @losttt - that is devastating. Anniversaries can be so tough, the first one especially so. It sounds like you’re feeling very alone right now, so I wanted to share some sources of support for you.
- Survivors of Bereavement by Suicide offer support to people over 18 who have been affected by suicide. They have a supportline on 0300 111 5065 and run support groups nationally.
- You might also want to check out Let’s Talk About Loss. They run peer-led groups for 18 - 35 year olds. You can find your local group on their website: MEET UP - Let's Talk About Loss
I’m sure someone will be along to share their thoughts too, but I just wanted you to know that you’ve been heard.