Wanted to reach out on here to connect with others who have lost loved ones to Covid.
My wonderful Dad passed on 30th July after testing positive on the 14th. He was immunosuppressed after living with CLL since 2006. But you would never know. He was 71 in body, 30 something in mind. Loved golf and played regularly, still worked full time as a driving instructor, loved music and was due to go to the Isle of Wight festival with my uncle this Sunday. We were also due to go on a Greek Cruise next year, our first holiday together since I was a child.
He was double vaccinated and had spent most of the time since 2020 shielding. But when life started to get back to ‘normal’ he embraced it. He absolutely loved life and grabbed it with both hands.
When he tested positive he was doing great for a couple of days and we thought the vaccines had done their job - brilliant!!!
But then on the 19th July (Freedom Day…hate that day) he was taken to hospital and by the 21st he was in ICU. He was awake the while time until 30th when he couldn’t take any more and his support was switched off. He wasnt allowed any visitors except my stepmum to hold him while he passed in his final hours. I only managed to speak to him a couple of times in his last 2 weeks because he was too poorly to talk and he couldn’t reply to many texts. He video called me to tell me he was going and that was the hardest conversation I have had I my whole life. I told him I loved him and that he was the best Dad in the world.
But my heart aches.
I cry most days and just feel sad all the time.
I miss him so much.
My husband and friends have been great but everyone keeps trying to.make plans and sort Christmas which is the last thing on my mind.
And whenever I tell anyone my dad has passed from covid they ask did he have underlying conditions. When they find out he did, it feels as if they think that’s OK then. Why?? He could have lived another 10 or 20 years with his CLL. He was taken too soon by a horrible virus and I feel so angry.
Is anyone else in a similar situation? Would be good to talk