Killing Eve is in the last series now but itās worth a watch imo as think Villainelle (one of the main characters) is just priceless and one of the best characters Iāve seen in tv in years x
Whatās up with the wee one? I know my friends granddaughter was off nursery a week or so ago with a sickness tummy bug thingā¦but true to form she was bouncing about within 24 hrs but my friend who got it off her was still suffering about 6 days laterā¦oh to be young again lol x
Has today been a struggle for you? Has it been same intensity that the other days have been? x. Like us all here I just miss my mum so much just now so Iāve been writing to her in my journal a lot latelyā¦.so miss her huge smile x
Iām watching the new series of SAS:Who Dares Wins nowā¦not sure I like the new DSā¦miss Ant Middleton lol x
Do you have or use a Himalayan salt lamp at all? I have one in my bedroom and put it on for a few hours before I go to bed and it may be psychosomatic but I find I sleep better when itās been on combined with my lavender room sprayā¦I seem to stay asleep longer.
Hope you have an uneventful night and can get some sleep.
Hi Neil,
Iāve been finding Corrie a bit hard to watch over the last couple of episodes if Iām totally honest so try and watch something a bit more light hearted afterwards x
Itās nice to hear you see your self worth and that you are very much cared for and loved x I know the road ahead is still very frightening and long but knowing who our true friends is comforting I findā¦helps us focus on people and relationships that will help and support us and not drag us down. It may be just me that feels like that but Iāve come to the decision that iām not going to invest myself in to keeping relationships that serve me no good x
Hoping that after a session or two that your counsellors accent will be more familiar to you but glad to hear that itās not a massive issue. 6 sessions seems to be the standard, I have my last one this Wed and although I will miss my counsellor she has helped me so much so feel itās only right that sheās able now to take on another client and help them x
If you find the next couple of days tough as they often can be you know where we all are and least you have the football and theatre to focus positively on x
She had a temperature and red cheeks. Thought scarlet fever but spoke to doctor and hopefully not. Her new nursery has had one case of it. I think most likely the cold myself and Georgia have had. Sheās been fine in herself.
Today has been hard. Itās a Monday but tried to distract myself. Itās been 8 weeks since that awful first night. I had mums dog earlier too. Which I love but also hate. As she shouldnāt have to be here with me. She should be home with her mum. Iāve got both dogs on Wednesday for a sleep over. That will be interesting. Me, 2 kids and 2 boxer dogs in one bedā¦. I donāt mind. Will be a nice distraction. Hopefully evils will stay in her bed a bit longer than usual. Or else itās gonna be absolute carnage! Reckon Georgia will decamp back in to her one bed before the night is out. Iāll most likely join her!
Just so much else to worry about at the moment and my head really isnāt in the right place to be thinking about much else at the moment.
Itās hard isnāt it as you know. I bet your mum is looking down on you and being super proud of you.
Iāve never used anything like that to help me sleep. Having the tv on quietly was always my thing but since children I canāt do that. Used to always read a lot at bedtime. Used to read myself off to sleep. Mum was the same. Iāve needed glasses in the last year though so took the enjoyment out of it a bit. Maybe one day Iāll read again. But again itās something I got off Mum which I canāt do at the moment. Maybe Iāll try something more natural. I used to take Kalms to help but they didnāt work then.
Hope youāve had a good night. The ice cream sounded amazing by the way!
Wow you must be some lady to cope with two children and two boxers lol x I can only imagine how hard it was to have your mumās dog today but theyāre maybe needing you as much as you need them just now for cuddles and you all are going to have a ball when they visit x. I reckon Iām with Georgiaā¦off to my own bed x
You say youāve got lots to worry about just nowā¦if you ever want to talk about anything Iām/weāre here for you x
What have been up to today? have you had any respite today from feeling low? Any more thoughts about getting the tent? x
I canna get to sleep without a background noise and never have been able toā¦drove mum made when we were on hols sharing a room lol x I always have the tv on a sleep timer and usually itās Family Guy x
The last present mum bought me was a kindle cause I need glasses for reading and with the kindle I can read in bed without themā¦best pressie ever lol x
Kalms never worked for me either tbh but the rescue remedy kinda takes the edge off a bit so I can relax so when on an early shift makes a difference x
Hope tonight will give you some peace so you can relax a little and that if Evils is in with you that she keeps her nappy on x rest well tonight as you aināt getting much sleep tomorrow night with your visitors lol x
Will chat tomorrow and until then take care of yourself xx
I got my dates wrong. Or my sister did. Neither of us can remember when the dates were discussed. Both our brains are mushy. Anyway itās next week not this week.
Oh my god family guy was always my fall asleep to tv program also! Do love a bit of family guy.
I worry about saying things on here as I know anyone can see it and donāt want things being held against me. Iāve openly told people Iām on here and how Iāve met some lovely people.
Weāve not done loads today as evie still not great but we trekked into town and got some bits and bobs. And Georgia had her gymnastics class earlier so I quickly popped off to the shop with my sister to get some Easter eggs then we had a walk around a park with evie. It was quite nice.
I think I might have to invest in some rescue remedy. I need to get my sleep routine back on track. How bad is it that Iām a 41 year old mother of 2 and my mum had to text me every morning to make sure I was up?! And if I didnāt answer sheād call me. Need to sort that before I go back to work. God. Just a whole new way of living.
Hi Suzanne
Had a quiet day yesterday. As you know Tuesday and Wednesday are normally my worst although even though they still are , those days are not as bad as they were. With the counselling starting hopefully I can keep improving.
Not a lot planned for Wednesday but have a couple of phone calls and some emails to do.
Sending love and best wishes
Neil x
NicNic, Itās really hard isnāt it to get back some kind of routine when your sleep pattern goes haywire. It will probably correct itself over time without you noticing. I started to light a tealight as I went to bed. The constant of the flame was relaxing (just a tiny bit) and as they only last a couple of hours you can go to sleep knowing you donāt have to put them out. I had a little smile at your mum texting you to get up! Hope your little ones ok. I can imagine if one comes down with something then they both do. Georgia sounds a really sporty little girl. (and probably quite dainty if sheās into gymnastics!!)
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Neil. Glad you have got a counsellor now. If you can see just a small improvement that amazing. You donāt have to try and feel better all at once, just finding your feet is something. Probably keeping going to the Theatre has been the biggest thing thatās kept you going. Itās helped you to not lose connection with the outside world. I know how easy it is just to retreat. Have a peaceful day. xx
Hi Suzanne
Hope you are keeping your sanity in the Pet store!! Pet owners can be the strangest canāt they. Many may not have a lot of interaction with other humans and their pet is their lifeline I imagine. If they come in and start asking for stuff in cat language and you understand what they are saying then thatās the time to worry! Zoe still not good and no diagnosis yet. Another line of investigation is a possible bladder parasite after she weeād in the sea. We give it Advocate every month but Bladder worm isnāt covered by this treatment. Pets are as big a worry as kids arenāt they! Iām intrigued by your Himalayan salt lamp. I have been tempted in the past to buy one. They just seem so calming.
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Hello Christine. If you are improving and feeling better thatās wonderful, but if not I hope you are being looked after. Hope everything you have done/doing in your garden has been going to plan.
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Hi Tina
Early days with the counselling but going OK so far. Itās very important for me to keep talking otherwise the dark thoughts and sadness start to reappear. Talking to you wonderful people on here helps immensely too.
Theatre is definitely my saviour and gives me something to look forward to which is also very important.
Hope your day is as good as possible
Love and best wishes
Neil x
I understand Neil, as soon as Iām slowing down I can sense my wind starting to wander. Iām having a brew contemplating whether scrubbing the garden paving stones is a worthy ādistractionā!
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Plus side about having another week before you get the dogs is gives you more time to buy treats lol x plus Evie will be feeling better so sheāll be able to enjoy it more x
Hope you either got an Easter egg for yourself or your sister bought you one from the girls x.
Your walk sounds like it may have done you some good x
I get what you mean about it being a public forum here and often forget and treat it like our own wee WhatsApp chat lol but pretty sure if there is anything you can private message x
My friend who is a couple of years older than you when her girls were younger (weāre going back 16-17 years) used it have to have her mum phone her too to get her up even when she was married lol x her mum used to phone her at like stupid times like 5am and her husband used to moan but when he realised it wasnāt going to change he stopped lol x
The lack of routine and disrupted sleep pattern was what I found hardest to sort and still have bad weeks where I either sleep too much or not at all x Iāve tried to keep bed time to roughly the same time even on days Iām off and have tried to not sleep later than 9amā¦,weird though I used to be able to sleep til lunchtime and didnāt have an impact but does now for some reason x.
Was working today 7-11 and then got my time back from working on my day off so took some things to the charity shop then went to Asdaā¦I am so rockānāroll x just had lunch and now away to put a couple of pictures into framesā¦I can sense how envious you are about my wild lifestyle lol x
What are you and the girls up to today? Itās got so cold again up here so will not be going in to the gardenā¦will see what itās like on Friday.
Nice chatting to you as always so have a good afternoon x
I do need to sort myself out with sleep. Iād be up most mornings when mum would text but she knows from when I still livid with her that I was partial to the snooze buttonā¦
Hmmmmm Iām not sure Iād describe Georgia as dainty! Sheās like a bull in a China shop! She does enjoy her gymnastics though and sheās also very good at dancing.
Iām so pleased for you that despite those days being your hard days that you are finding them not as crushing as previous weeks x I understand completely that those days will always be raw for you for the present but I am so genuinely pleased that you are finding it easier x I used to almost fear Saturdayās especially Saturday night and still donāt really understand why but lately like you it hasnāt been having the same impact which I have been taking as a small win x
You have came on so much lately and think youāll find the sessions continue to keep giving you confidence and different coping strategies that will allow you to keep moving forward but at a pace you feel comfortable with x
Hope you get your calls and emails done and then you can concentrate on the football tomorrow x
Have a good afternoon and look forward to hearing from you x
Put it this way working in a pet shop certainly has no two days the same and when Iām in the dog groomers the stuff they expect us to do is mental!! We are not miracle workers lol x today we had a Bernese Mountain dog in today and it was DIRTY!!! The white bits were brown and had like twigs stuck in fur at itās legs and was like 80kgs lol x took two of them to do him and still took over 2 hours lol x he was a true gentle giant lucky enough x
Iām so sorry to hear that you are now further forward to knowing what is wrong with Zoe š„² x Have they given you a timescale as to when they think theyāll have an answer for you? Hope meanwhile sheās not in too much discomfort and youāre spot on, pets cause as much concern and worry than kids x
I just like the Himalayan salt lamps as so soothing and you can leave them on a while without using too much electricity and I think I notice a difference with it on versus when itās not. If you find a good bargain then treat yourself but i too often do that with tealights as I like you like the flickering as find it quite hypnotic and soothing x
What are you up to lately? Any gardening? Any more twat neighbours?
Hope whatever you do keeps you well and keep in touch when you can/feel up to it.
You and the rest of the gang (Iāve decided thatās what we are now lol) are in my thoughts daily so talk soon
Itās really cold here today too. Started off really nice and warm. Couldnāt do much this morning as had assessment for bereavement counselling. Which Iāve been accepted for. Itās with Sue Ryder.
We should of done something though as now moping around and have no motivation. Just feeling so fed up and sad.
Your life sounds as rock and roll as mine to be honest!
I really hope you get the Sue Ryder counsellor I have as she is amazing (I know they probably all are) but this lady just is so kind and wise and has helped me heaps x. My last session with her is tonight but if that means someone like yourself who could benefit more at present from help can get it then I am happy x
Is today a hard day for you too? I know Wednesday is a hard day for Neil and myself but seem to think I saw you say they were for you too but head is mince so could be wrong x
Try see today as a self care day where you spoil yourself and are kind to yourself and will chat soon xx
Do you feel you need more sessions? I know they only offer 6 donāt they?
I hope it does help and Iām glad itās helped you.
I donāt know why today. Should of done something but instead sat here with all these thoughts going round and round. Evie is at nursery tomorrow so will take eldest off somewhere and do something.
I think everyday is hard and could have some significance to it at the moment.
I think the cat is definitely plotting against you and you should be watching your back!
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