Hi everyone last year I had the biggest shock of my life when I lost my dad who passed away at home from cancer which was hard enough to take .
Then three months after we buried dad my eldest brother felt unwell at work and they took him to the hospital and they found cancer in his lungs.
Within 4days it spread to his stomach and his liver and two days later he passed away and I couldn’t make it to the hospital on time .
Since then I’ve been drinking more frequently
And recently got arrested for drink driving because of the emotions from when I see them at the cemetery.
I didn’t realise that the pain of losing them so quickly would impact on my life so dramatically.
I’ve had to stop drinking because of medical reasons and I know my dad and my brother wouldn’t want to see me that way .
That must be very hard on you and very difficult to come to terms with losing to loved ones so close.
I lost my Mum very recently and apart from the feelings of sadness, anxiety and grief, it is so physically exhausting.
Please don’t go down the drinking to feel better path though; I have an extremely close family member who we nearly lost but very fortunately he had a wonderful donor who donated a liver so he could have a transplant. It was such a terrifying ordeal so please dont harm your body in that way
I find walking/gym/ chatting to family and friends helps a lot. I am also fortunate to have my faith and the vicar who conducted the funeral for Mum was just so supportive.
You could try speaking to the pastoral support team in your local church; they will not force religion on you but are there to help.
Take care and don’t be hard on yourself.