My father passed away on New Years Day 2021, in hospital all alone. The last time I saw him was Christmas day, for a few hours, yes I broke covid rules to see my parents and I’m glad I did. He was taken into hospital on Boxing day. We’ve managed as a family to get through this first year, but more recently my mum has lost all confidence about being on her own. I’m having mum at mine for Christmas and will be with her for New Year. I’m just wondering how to deal with it being Christmas/New year and also being the anniversary of dad’s passing all at the same time. I was told I’ll start to smile when I think of dad, but I can’t I always end up in tears
So sorry you are in this position and worrying about Christmas etc. It must be a concern for you about your Mum too. It’s the unknown isn’t it as well. It maybe that the event itself isn’t as traumatic as the build up. Sometimes it works out that way. Sending kind thoughts to you Georgie.