My dad passed away in sue ryder hospice on the 1st December 2015. Even though he had been ill and in hospital before coming home and then ending up in the hospice less than a week later, I honestly thought he would be OK. My Dad had always pulled through and this time his body just couldn’t cope anymore.
Some days it just hits me that he has gone, I can’t speak to him, the feeling in my stomach hurts so badly.
I feel like I can’t get upset in front of husband or friends as I should be finding it easier by now. I know that they would all be there for me but I just can’t do it.
Im sad and angry that he left. That the doctors didn’t do more for him. Sue ryder were amazing with us all, and I know nothing more could have been done for him, but it’s just not right.
Not even sure if what I’m writing is making sense I just needed to write it down somewhere.
I want to run away and be on my own for a few nights, just to be on my own and not have anyone else seeing how upset I am. X