It’s just gone 16 months now since I lost my dad I’ve still got a lot of anger that I wasn’t there I didn’t make it to the hospital things I never got to watch with my dad like the movies I got ready for him like laurel and hardy and benny hill comedy’s and the goodies its absolutely scarred me and destroyed me losing my dad I know he wouldn’t want me to be like this but I can’t help it it’s just how I feel I’m having counselling now again as I’ve recently been diagnosed with PTSD after losing my dad had my 2 nd councelling session today then when after all that’s finished I’m having my 3rd bereavement councelling I recently went down to see my dad’s grave a few weeks ago and tidy it up and talk to him there most days at night I get upset and say I just wish heaven had a telephone so I could just be able to talk to my dad
Hi @David8 ,
I’m sure someone will be along to share their thoughts, but I just wanted to say thank you for so bravely sharing this with us. Keep reaching out.
Alex
I could really have done with having advice from my parents today (dad died 3 years ago & mum 6 weeks ago) had a difficult decision to make and had no one to turn to. Really miss them both. Had insomnia since mum died, I haven’t had any counselling yet, does it help? Sending a hug x
I think part of grief is the regret for the things you wish you’d done and also loss for the things you can’t do together. I lost my dad when I was 10, which is 50 years ago and I still go to his grave and have a conversation with him and tell him of my life and things that he missed. I so hope I’ve made him proud. My mum joined him when I was 21 so never got to see her grandchildren. Sorry, that turned into a ‘me’ reply. I feel your loss, look after yourself
Hi @Victoria22
I think counselling is helpful if you get the right person. Perhaps you know of someone who’s had it and could recommend someone.
I missed my mam so much yesterday when I went to the doctors, I so wanted her to come with me
Hope this helps 
Take care
My line manager is going to refer me to our workplace wellbeing hub to see if they can help or refer me for counselling. Hope they can help x