Day 3 on fluxotine and iv had to take just half a diazepam

Losing a partner
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My heart feels like its going to burst out my chest, the weather is dull and wet which means a dark day people still messaging me asking what happened etc on fb, sick line in which gives me 2 weeks to get myself.motovated as need to work to pay the bills, oh god i hate my life, im blessed with good family but they have their own lives , im trying to put a smile on my face so they dont worry but inside my body aches, i cant do this again its not fair, what did i ever do to be punished having 2 men who loved me taken away and especially by 1 who decided to end his life himself, did he love me , wasnt i enough i would rather he had just up and left me than go through this grief again. Im sorry to all of you grieving , im just so sad and dont know what to do.

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Hi @Miamoo2017 ,

Thank you so much for sharing this with the community :blue_heart: I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I just wanted to let you know that you have been heard and you are not alone.

Take good care,
Alex

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Thanks you , i understand that people wont know what to say to me and i totally respect that as everyone is dealing with their own losses.

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Hi @Miamoo2017
I’m so sorry you are having to deal with all this sadness and hurt. It isn’t easy is it.
I have no answers sadly that will help but please know you are not alone in your suffering and sadness. I don’t know if that helps even a little but I’m sure your partners loved you very much and would hate that you were in such pain.
Sometimes it is so hard to deal with the emotional anguish that we carry, that it feels impossible to carry on.
Sending you lots of love and strength xxx

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@Miamoo2017 You have been through so very much, it isn’t surprising that you’re feeling this way. He can’t explain to you why he did what he did, and you are looking for answers. Cry, scream, do whatever you need to do, there are no rules in this cruel situation we find ourselves in.

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Thank you for kind words it means a lot x

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I appreciate your message i really do and i know they would never do anything to hurt me.but at times i am so angry at both of them. Im.glad i have all you wonderful.people to talk too even though most of the time im a miserable cow lol x

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