Dealing with being alone

I lost my husband this year also my only son 3years ago i cant believe they are gone i looked after my husband for a few years which i found hard and sometimes wished i could find peace but now he is gone it has hit me hard.i feel quilty about how i used to get frustrated but i know deep down he is in a better place.everybody sees me as a cheery person always up for a laugh but it is a face i have put on for years and now that i am alone i find myself wanting to scream and tell people that what they see is not the real me

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Sorry for your loss. Must be so hard to loose both son and your husband. I think we all put on a face to the outside world. Do you have a close friend you could tell how you really fee. Or perhaps a bereavement group where you could let it all out

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So sorry; you’ve had so much loss in such a short time. Maybe ask your GP for help, or for bereavement counselling? It’s a lot to cope with; no wonder you want to scream. Be kind to yourself, and get as much rest as you can.

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I’m so sorry for your losses @JACKIENJOHN98

If you feel you want to scream, then scream. Whatever you want to do, do it.
This is a horrendous journey we are on and you must do whatever it takes to help you through.

Can you reach out to friends or family and tell them how you feel. Let them know how you are struggling.

Please try not to feel guilty, you did your best. I know that is not easy, I too feel guilt, I’m trying not to but it’s hard to shake off.
But listening to people on here a lot of us feel guilt, and we shouldn’t

Please keep posting on here. You will find everyone will understand. We are all going through the same heartbreak. All at different stages and all ready to listen and support

Sending you big hugs :people_hugging:

Liz x x

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Thank you i have my grandson who is a godsend to me i dont think i could have carried on if he wasnt here he is 25 but has a old head on hi

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Thank you for you kind thoughts my grandson who is 25 is a great help to me because i am disabled and have cancer i try to keep away from doctors and all they do is give you tablets which i have enough of

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Thank you for you kind thoughts my grandson who is 25 is a great help to me because i am disabled and have cancer i try to keep away from doctors and all they do is give you tablets which i have enough of i must thank everybody that has replied i dont talk about my feelings normally but it is a help to hear from others that are going through the same as me

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Jackie I feel terrible guilt and sadness because I got so angry with my husband and i couldn’t cope emotionally with his dementia which was nowhere near as bad as some people with dementia but because I was so upset and scarfed I had a very short fuse because there seemed no help from anywhere. I have 2 sons but it was lockdown after lockdown and everything for everyone was in turmoil I guess but i should have been more accepting and calm… and I wasn’t. So I feel guilt too . He died 2 years ago from a heart related problem so his dementia was cut short. I miss him every minute of every day after 56 years together. I send you my very best wishes and to tell you it is all a terrible loss for everyone who writes on here.

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I was in the same situation of losing my temper and then feeling guilty afterwards also when asking for help i felt nobody was listening i was married for 51years and i used to wish he would just sleep away it sounds terrible now my actions if wishing that is making his death harder to take

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Same here… just a dreadful feeling and can’t get motivated to do much but just carry on with this terrible loss. sending you my good wishes.

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