I think when we experience death and grief, we need to put aside normal human behavior in that we need to let those big things do their thing and just follow.
most on here, me included, have tried to force death and grief to fit the mold of life we are accustomed to - but you cannot. death and then grief are in charge and you must let them run the show and do what they say.
then you fully mourn and experience all this horror because honestly you have no choice. like love, they reduce us and we just have to go with the flow and Nature until enough time has passed and they depart and you go back to your life, in whatever form or fashion you can manage. I think so …