I am new to this community and I feel silly for writing really!!..I am 46 years old and lost my grandma (I lived with her for several years) she passed just over a year ago and I’m still crying…I still look for music to listen to to try to comfort me…I had cancer…chemo…radiation…surgery…and 1 mnth after surgery she passed…
None of that compares to the loss I feel. I go to work and I’m ok but when I get home and I’m by myself I can’t stop missing her…she had dementia and really didn’t know me the last few years of her life…
But atleast when she was alive I still would tell myself she will remember sooner or later…I know her passing was for the best,but I just can’t get over that…is this normal…I truly feel like a fool I’m still wearing all her old t-shirts and talk to her picture daily
Hi Sray,
I’m sorry to hear that you lost your grandma just over a year ago. Please don’t feel silly or foolish for writing here and sharing how you’re feeling - this is a safe and supportive space to do just that and everyone here has experienced something similar and will understand how you feel.
In the grand scheme of things I often think that a year really isn’t that long. What you’re feeling is normal. Grieving takes time and it can take a different amount of time for everyone - this is something that’s often discussed in this community. We have an article on our website about time and grief that may be worth a read through: https://www.sueryder.org/how-we-can-help/someone-close-to-me-has-died/advice-and-support/how-long-does-grief-last
I hope you find at least some comfort being in this community as you’re certainly not alone here.
Take care,
Eleanor