My lovely Mum had a stroke which brought on dementia in 2019. Over the following 12 months her dementia became so much worse. During lockdown I was her only carer and I had no one to help me. Later that year she was happy to go to a care home as she no longer recognised her own home. Whilst in her new home I was not allowed to see her (Covid times). Unfortunately she had a fall and ended up in hospital. Again I was unable to see her. Whilst in hospital she had a fall which involved an operation ti insert a rod into her leg. The hospital took responsibility for this but she was on end of life care. Ultimately she was transferred to a nursing home. I was able to see her a couple of times and when that was no longer allowed I took a step ladder and climbed up to her window just to see her. She did die and we could only have limited number at her funeral. No wake and no singing or hugging or being together in our grief.
I feel so bitter when people broke Covid rules and the government makes me so angry with how they handled the whole thing.
I miss my Mum and and didn’t want her to suffer and I know this was just a small part of her lovely long life. How can I move on whilst I still feel so angry
Ah so sorry for the grief that’s prompted your post, it sounds like a truly awful experience. No wonder you feel angry, but it seems you know that putting things into perspective is the only way to move forward. You know that your Mum’s life story was more than this sad ending. Can you find a way to express all the anger? Have you considered counselling? Grief is such a complex mixture of emotions isn’t it? I lost my Mum suddenly in January and the push for me is knowing that she would want me to get on with my life. So I keep going, trying everyday. Best wishes xx
My goodness. How do I begin to comfort you over such heart breaking situations, particularly over the care of your dear mum. You did your best for her I can assure you. You wanted her placed in professional care in order that she had 24 hour protection from harm. Covid clearly impacted care homes, what with the vulnerabilities of the residents but also the lowered staffing levels. I feel your pain over the feelings of being cheated of time with your mum … and that’s what hurts the most I feel when losing someone. I’m also grieving over my mum and all I can say is, think of what your mum would say to you in your grief … what would she be saying to you? Think of those special moments you spent together because they can never be taken away. Love to you xx
I lost my mum just over 3 months ago she wasnt just my mum she was my bestfriend 
i was with her every day. I normally would be sitting with her now whike i wait to collect my youngest from school thankfully i have 4 amazing kids but i just have this massive void sometimes i feel like im losing my mind i feel like i meerly exist rather than live i watched my mum go into hospital and never come out i feel for you i do because i know exactly how u feel broken