death of parent you didn't like/was abusive

[Confused38]

Hi. I’ve literally made a post about the other side of grief, when there wasn’t a good relationship. As much as I can’t offer any advice, I can tell you, you are not alone with how you’re feeling.

Absent father death

Hi. I’m not sure where to start or if I’ve even come to the right place. My dad was never a permanent feature in my 38 years and when he was, it was because I had reached out. At 18 I found out he was remarried with 2 children. My mum he was having a baby with my stepdad and it stirred up feelings for me so mum helped me get contact details and I made contact. Every time I tried to pull away from him, I remembered I had a brother and sister there that I loved and wanted in my life. There was a…