Hi all, I’m new to this forum so bear with me.
I lost my mum in June 2024 which was kind of expected. Afterwards I dealt with all the arrangements for the funeral, house, finances etc as my sister can’t deal with these things. I was alright at the time and got on with sorting everything out, but then just before Christmas 2024 the loss hit me like a ton of bricks and since then I have been struggling big time with depression and crippling anxiety. I see fear in everything and think about my own mortality, I have slowly stopped seeing people and wanting to go out. Have no interest in doing the things I used to enjoy doing. I have been to my GP and been given antidepressants, but I still feel so down. It’s the anxiety which is the worse feeling, I just want to get my ‘normal’ life back and try to move forward.
Fred 28
You have been preoccupied with all the dealings of losing a loved one that your blinkered as to whats going on in life. Now all of thats over reality gas sunk in I think a support group called Cruse can help you forward with a one to one or over the phone talk. Keep coming on here you’ll always get positive help for yourself.
Take care wishing you well. 
Silver fox
Thank you so much for your reply. I’m hoping to talk next week to a Sue Ryder counsellor, which I hope will point me in the right direction, and help me to move forward with my life. It will take time but I hope to get there with help.
Hi Fred28 im so sorry for your loss and everything your going through😔 i sadly also lost my mum in June last year and can relate to a lot of what you have said. Recently, i have been wanting a ‘normal’ life back too but then other times i just want to hid away from life as much as possible. Its such a confusing time! I hope the counselling can help you🙏 i just starting seeing a counsellor 2 weeks ago so early days but hopeful will help guide me through this too🙏
Lena40
So sorry to hear about the loss of your mum, it’s so difficult to process, and at the same time manage everyday life too. Even though it was 8 months ago, I am still struggling, but some days are better than others. Slowly getting there day by day, but some days I have to really try hard to get through everyday tasks. I know I have to move forward for the sake of my kids and grandkids, and that life goes on, and this is what my mum would have wanted me to do. We will get through this, but in time. Wishing you well and lots of hugs, you are not alone….
Thanks Fred28 im glad you have your family around you, i know im grateful for mine too and youre right, my mum would want me to as well even though, as you said, some days that feels harder than others! Going through this really is one day at a time, but yeah we will get there somehow. Wishing you well too!
Lena40
Wishing you well and remember you’re not alone, and these feelings will gradually disappear in time, and we can start enjoying our lives again 
xx