Another early morning wake up-get up, first mug of tea at my computer desk…Another morning of crying as i contemplate getting out of bed, time now 5.45 am…My first cry of the day was of my MS society how i feel abandoned by them, then i started thinking of not only where i will move to, which county but also which type of home, baring in mind my needs, my illness, i have been playing around with so mny varying choices, some i dont want but may need, others i would prefer but wont be practical, then next came the crying of " i dont belong anywhere, i dont belong to anyone." well i dont since i lost my partner Richard of 20 years, 11th April, if we were still together i wouldn’t care where we moved to, just the two of us…I am feeling so alone, i just dont belong anywhere or to anyone…how can this happen when 68 years on this earth…Without my Richard i am nobody…
Jackie…