Feeling very down this weekend…maybe Fathers Day has something to do with it…but also a bit of a reality check hit me and I got a bit reflective. I hope people don’t mind my attempts at poetic expression, but I find it a good way to get my feelings out…if it helps anyone else then all the better. Hope everyone has as good a weekend as they can 
I started thinking, just today
This awful truth is here to stay
It matters not how much I weep
My new life is here for keeps
So, taking stock of how things are
I don’t have to think too hard
The starting point is where it ends
We all will die, let’s not pretend
My final destination’s clear
And of that fact, I have no fear
In fact it’s where I want to be
You’re waiting there, waiting for me
My problem is, what happens next?
Will it be quick, or be a test?
The thought of hanging on to life
At any cost?..now that’s a fright
None of us can ever know
How long we have before we go
But anything to stay alive?
That’s not a life, we need to thrive
Don’t get me wrong, I cannot lie
Have have no desperate wish to die
But what I just can’t live without
Is you, of that there is no doubt
And so while I am fit and well
I must endure this living hell
We’ve both been dealt this hand of cards
Which means we must remain apart
But in the end, when time is right
I won’t resist, I shall not fight
I have no will to struggle on
Prolong my pain while you’re still gone
I believe that when we die
Our consciousness is free to fly
We all return from whence we came
We’ll be together once again
But if one day I never wake
Then so be it, that chance I’ll take
Because the only time that I’m alright
Is when I go to sleep at night
…to dream 