Hello, i am completely broken, my wife Maxine passed away 4 weeks ago with 4 days notice aged 54. everything my life was based on turned to liquid and is lost, i just drive around trying to be distracted but nothing really helps. The NHS has been useless so ive organised a private session. any tips and help would be truly wonderful TIA
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Hi Dan, so sorry for the loss of your Maxine. I lost my Jackie 15 weeks ago. Yes, as many here can attest, it’s devastating. 
My life without her, seems to be pointless. To be honest, I have sobbed almost continually since Friday. Yes there are days, when the crying ceases for a while, but it always comes back. People tell me that time is a healer. It doesn’t and never will. Those people have no idea what the loss of someone that you have loved, in my case, for 60 years.
Those that have lost partners are the only ones that know. They say that in time you may learn to cope with the grief, but you will never get over it.
Grief is the price we pay for love and people like us have a heavy price to pay. That’s the blunt news, but you have made a start by coming here to chat with others in a similar position.
Firstly, you have to take care of yourself by eating and trying to keep active. Lost a stone and a half since Jackie died. I have regained a few lbs but not the full amount.
Experiences with the NHS can be different, depending on where you live. My local medical centre has been wonderful. I asked to see Jackie’s GP, to ask about her illness and she booked me sessions with a bereavement counsellor. While I thought the first session was not that good, I stuck at it and had four so far. I have a fifth booked.
The GP has prescribed me sleeping tablets and two different types of antidepressants, but I didn’t get on with any of them, so stopped the lot. My sleeping is erratic, but it helps if I try to keep busy. My bad time since Friday has been mainly caused by too many things happening at once all to do with a move of home, but hopefully I will be able to cope.
So take care of yourself and good luck 
Thank you Johnr, gives somewhat comfort to people are feeling similar pain, i wish you well for the future.
Regards aDan
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