Hello Everyone
I’m sorry I haven’t been on here lately,I’m not doing so good to be honest with you, eating and sleeping is a massive problem,I have got to have full blood’s again 23rd May, don’t know why.
Sukis Ashes finally came home last Friday afternoon
I’m on blood pressure tables etc, blood pressure is through the roof,
My nerves are shot,I keep shaking uncontrollable,I keep crying Another day closer to my beautiful Lucy
I really don’t want to be here,I’m Not living I’m Existing, weekends are really bad for me as you know,and the evenings,I close the lounge curtains at 6pm, lock myself away from the world,bank holiday weekend is coming again
Lucy’s birthday is 5th June, I know there is a lot of help out there for me,and you send me contact telephone numbers to ask for help,
I hope that you are all doing the best you can, wonderful people on here who really care and I am so very grateful to you all,I will be back here tomorrow evening, until then,I send you all Lot’s of love and hugs
Martin xx xx