Difficulty coming to terms with my sister's death

[LILY9]

I am having difficulties in coming to terms with the death of my younger sister in September 2023 from ovarian cancer. I wake at night and cannot get back to sleep because my brain keeps going over so many things from the past and I am now scared that something may happen to my husband, son or other family (including myself). This is stopping me from enjoying my life now and I want to be able to carry on with things without this awful feeling of dread coming over me.

[Seaneen]

I’m so sorry for the death of your sister, @LILY9. You might want to reach out to @RSC1998, who posted this thread a few days ago talking about similar worries:

Scared of losing mum after sister died

Hi there, My older sister (38) passed away suddenly and unexpectedly last October. She had suffered with chronic illness but it was still a shock. The past few years I’ve already been slightly worried about losing my mum (61), but I’m so much more fearful now. She doesn’t have any big health issues, but losing my sister has made me hyper aware that my mum is my only immediate family left. I’m 27, but she’s still a huge support for me. Has anyone else felt that fear of losing another loved on…

It sounds like this fear is really stopping you enjoying your life right now. It might be worth a visit to the GP to see if there is any extra support they can offer you. We also have further support on our website at www.sueryder.org/support, too.

Take good care, you are not alone.
Seaneen