It has now been four months since my beloved dad died. He loved good food, and ever since he has died, I have been unable to eat anything that I like. The pizza and chips are still in the freezer, no more ready meals, no more crisps or chocolate or sweets, no more pasta or rice or roast potatoes, no drinks except Lucozade for energy, it’s just boring, mundane, healthy food.
My mum told me that my dad’s soul would be very upset that I am not enjoying my food. She’s correct, dad would really hate it, he would be saying that I should be enjoying myself, but I just cannot. Today I tried to get a ready meal from Iceland, thought I would try Macaroni and Cheese. Got home, microwaved, it and ended up throwing most of it away, as I felt so sad eating it and that my dad isn’t here to have it.
This is all so illogical, considering my dad would want me to be eating food I enjoy, but I can’t, and it is frustrating. I feel like I am disappointing him. I am sure others have also done illogical things, how much time does it take to get over these things? Was there anything specific they did to overcome them, or was it just a case of time makes things better? Thanks.