I wonder if anyone has the same thoughts. I am so alone after losing my husband of 57 years 4 weeks ago. I do not want to be here anymore. I am binning things out of the house in preparation for me going. Have been doing that for the last year while I was caring for my husband. Although he was ill we were managing. His sudden heart attack shook the life out of me. I am glad he is out of pain but my life is now pointless.
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I understand. I hit the 6 month mark on 1st August. I’ve felt like you many times and I also have a plan. But the next day is usually a bit better somehow and I cannot believe that I felt that way. Until it hits me again. No idea how I will feel from one day to the next but I seem to keep going.
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hello i read your post and my thoughts are with you if you have friends or family talk to them because if you did what you are thinking about think how you feel just now they then would feel the same and as we both know it sucks i lost my husband of 47 years 11 weeks ago and today i feel like it was just today Davy died but i know i must keep going as that is what he wanted we have joined this club we didnt want to be in but we keep going and we will get their i am sure not today or tommorrow but at some point so keep writing on here as we will listen and we know just how you feel
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It is very very early days for you, it is completely normal to feel the despair horror emptiness and pointlessness that you are feeling. All of us on here have been there some of us are there.
It really does get easier, but sadly the path you are on now does hurt terribly, you must let yourself feel the pain of your grief, you need to weep and keen and accept the awful hurt and despair you are feeling. Then you will start to heal, grief is a lonely and very painful road but you will build your life around it, slowly healing and learning ways to live with your grief.
There are so many helpful posts on here which will make you realise you are not alone you are supported on here and you will see whatever you are feeling is normal.
Keep posting on here, keep reading, let your tears fall and you will start to heal, bit by bit it will happen. You are not alone. X
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