Not posted in a while. Will be 3 years in July losing my beautiful mum, but it still feels like it was last week. Its like I am stuck in a wheel, just going round and round. Some days are worse than others, cant literally watch anything on tv that involves funerals or even dementia adverts or I just am in tears. Really dont know how to move forward but know I can’t go back 
. I feel so much that part of me is missing, they outside world has become alien to me. The world is still turning but I am just stuck.
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I lost my beautiful dad in 2019. It does get easier. It took me a long time to be able to see anything about cancer or the loss of a parent on TV etc. I spiralled into severe addiction and it was only when I got clean that I had to start facing things and working on my grief. We’ll always miss them desperately, but time is a healer. Sending you love x x
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Thank you, sometimes worry I should be further forward. But the pain and loss is still very much real for me. Thank you again for reply, much appreciated x
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Three years and five months since I was widowed. I guess I sort of get used to it but I can’t say I am how I would like to be. I struggle loads with uncertainty and trying to get confidence. Often chicken out at last minute too much of an effort alone.
Do not think non stop as at first but still a lot on my mind. Nearly 50 years is a long time doing things how we did.
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