I lost my partner 14 months ago… It was sudden however he was alcohol dependant. He was only 43 and I found him on the floor too late. I think about it all the time and it scares me that it won’t get better 
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I am sorry for your loss and finding him like that Many of us are struggling like you Have you thought of having professional help it might ease the pain I try to keep busy to avoid thinking about the past and use meditation to try and relax You cannot change what happened he made his choices Thinking of you You are not alone Blessings
I just got told by my doctor to join the wait on all the counselling lists and I might get somewhere 
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