Sitting here my dog beside me, youngest upstairs sleeping, and i cant settle , i could do some cleaning but no motivation for that, really want to sleep the days away but cant do that, scroll on social media but come off as dont want to engage in conversation if they see im online, played games on phone but loose interest, im just totally lost , no visitors as all working plus they have their own ,feeling very alone, i dont want to cry because i wont stop, i dont want to believe my partner took his own life even though i witnessed it,my head is so messed up ,for anyone wjo reads my message thanks for taking the time to do so xx
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I’m with you. It’s a terrible time, the early days, you won’t know where you are. Do whatever you feel like, or nothing. It doesn’t really matter. 
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I know exactly how you feel. Lost my partner ten days ago and my life sounds exactly like yours without the child bit. I managed to get out of bed today only because the celbrant has called round to sort the funeral on Thursday. Other than that not heard off a soul not so called friends who are “there for me” or anyone. I miss my partner so much 
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So early for you. Friends that don’t support are not really friends at all. 13 weeks for me and quite a few have fallen by the wayside. At first I thought I had lost friends, now I feel like I have pruned them. The really supportive people are the ones I least expected to be there for me.
I agree with SadGirlfriend. Right now just do what is right for you. Any jobs that need doing will still be there when you feel up to it. For now, just breathe and get through the next hour.
Sending strength and hugs to everyone that needs them. Xx
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It’s ok that you don’t want to do anything. Only do what you really need to and other than that just try get through the day.
You need to keep going when you have kids but the down side is you have no time to grieve on your own.
You will get through this. All of us will - just at different times and on different journeys.
Remember you are not alone - this community will be with you each and every day you need us. Xx
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My thoughts go out to you !
It’s really hard and very lonely
I try and go for a walk listen to the birds in the fresh air helps keep my mind from thinking things that I find hard
It gives me a bit of respite
Sending hugs x
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Just have no notivation whatsoever, x
Sending hugs xx
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Thank you for your kind words xx
Thank you so much your words mean alot xx
Thank you xx
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It’s fine to do nothing. Your body and mind need to recover from the shock. xx
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Thank you xx