Dreamt last night, I had made a mistake because I’d got rid of all his clothes and I was walking with my mum and I said ," how silly I am getting rid of all his clothes he was only away he’s coming back soon he’s going to need them " .
Then I stopped walking and said oh no he isn’t is he , he’s dead. Then my mum told me to keep walking.
It’s not fair any of this.
I’m also sorry for anyone having to read this drivel , apologies. Thanks for all you support so far.
@Maz5 its not drivel. Sometimes saying it to someone gets it out of your system and helps your mind process it. Noone will think its crazy or daft because Im betting you’re not the only one who thinks or has thought this.
The worst dresm I had was when we were out shopping and I lost him. I looked and looked everywhere but I couldn’t find him, then it dawned on me why…
Don’t be sorry! This is a safe space for you to share whatever you want to share. It doesn’t matter. I find it helpful sharing things as it’s not then just floating around my head.
It isn’t fair any of this but unfortunately we are all in the crappiest club in the world 
Xx