This is the first Easter without my husband of nearly 50 years .Have just watched Gareth Malone train 8 singers and their performance at the Messiah .
I’m an atheist although I went to a C of E boarding school so I know the Christian Easter and its music well
I get flashes of memory , we once went to a performance in Toronto and Ross got bored after a few minutes so we left !
It’s 9 months after he died now and I have ups and downs ,I’m alone for the weekend but that has not been a problem , last Easter was grim as Ross was coming to the end of his journey with Alzheimer’s .
He was suffering and I felt guilty about wishing it would end .
I miss him terribly and feel his presence , I know he came to me once in a dream .He was my rock through thick and thin and I wish I could tell him that
Hello Jennypin
My husband of 53 years died 9 months ago too and I share your sentiments. I’m happy to be in my home where we lived together and I feel his presence here which is comforting. Grief lives with me now, sometimes quietly and sometimes not but our long and happy marriage will forever be in my thoughts. Sending you hugs.X
I’m not at all religious but my wife was.
Just ended 2 days with different people from close family. It was hectic and very tiring for me. Throughout both days, I struggled to hold my tears back.
As soon as my granddaughter and her boyfriend left yesterday, I burst into tears.
Today was my son, his wife, his 7 year old daughter and 2 year old son. Again struggled to hold tears back until they left.
I kept thinking how my wife would have loved the visits.
Why did she have to go? It’s not fair.
