Hello. I am new on here so this is my first post and I don’t really know what to say. I lost my Dad in June this year to cancer and, although we received a terminal diagnosis, it happened really quickly. I’ve also recently had to come to terms with not being able to have children, which is a different type of grief but, along with losing my Dad, I’m finding it really hard at the moment.
Everything is making me cry and I don’t feel I really have anyone to talk to. I don’t want to be the constant negative friend, I can’t talk to my mum or sister and my husband is great but doesn’t do well with strong emotions so I feel alone and like I have to keep everything in, although I know that’s not healthy. That’s when I found you guys.
My grief for my Dad actually feels worse as time goes by and everyone seems to have forgotten I lost him only a few months ago and expects everything to be normal. I think Christmas being round the corner and the first without him is having in the back of my brain and I’m dreaming about him quite a bit the last couple of weeks, which is nice - even though the dreams are weird…as dreams trends to be. My sister is 7 years younger than me, and I’m only 38 and she is struggling too and I want to help her but can’t cope with anyone else’s emotions just now and that makes me feel worse.
I’m trying to keep busy but am just overwhelmed at the minute with everything and feel or of control with all these emotions.
Sorry for the long post and thank you for listening.