I was pondering as I was sitting on the side of the bed before getting into it and having a last cry whilst I was thinking that " even after death I bet my Richard is still concerned over me, on how I will cope without him."…Pondering that this would have been me when getting ready in the evening to go to one of my 2 MS Society monthly’s that whilst he was getting ready or having a quick wash and shave my MS body always started to play up when I was putting my sandals or boots on, I could never get my ear rings in often abandoning them and just the effort of dressing making myself look decent would always take it toll and mess up my body…Richard would already have collected my rollator and put it outside the back door, I would do a last check to make sure I have everything I need inside it before we made our way out the back to the car, he would carry the rollator up those set of concrete steps…All this has now come to an end…They might have made arrangements for someone to come pick me up when the next meeting is due but going it alone is going to really affect me…Of course only 1 of the 2 MS socials I will now attend as the second one was in our next County Somerset 31 miles away, this will be one I will miss as the atmosphere was more jolly…
Jackie…