Everything has changed, forever…

Not sure how all you lovely people got through the past week? For me, it’s been just horrific…:broken_heart:

Spent most of the time on my own ( not looking for sympathy) completely my choice. The past few days I have slipped back to August (when I lost my love) and it’s akin to being hit with a sledgehammer. My Martin was only 47; I’m so bloody angry: I feel so robbed! We had soooooo many plans that are now just smoking matches.

I have been trying to focus on the here and now; what can I do? what can I change? I’ve come to the sad conclusion; NOTHING!!!

Everything has changed, changed forever…

My Martin was a writer, and one of his favourite quotes was; A terrible beauty is born”… by Yates, his favourite poet…

I have to accept that life as I knew it is over… indeed a terrible beauty is born…

Sending love to you all… xx​:pensive::heart:


This was the dearest to his heart, we had this on our Wedding service order, and again at his funeral; it’s just heartbreaking… love you Martin…:heart::heart:

Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.


Hi, that is so beautiful has brought tears to my eyes . Sending love and a big hug .X xtake carex


Can’t say it’s been easy but we’ve got through this far so each hurdle is an achievement when we’ve done it. x