I lost my soulmate and partner of 26 years last November and I know life will never be the same. If it wasn’t for my lovely children (14 and 20) I’m not sure I could carry on - there seems little point. I’m torn in so many ways and my emotions are all over the place. I worry about the future so much and I worry about my children - how can I be enough for them, how can I make some kind of worthwhile life for them out of what is left? It feels like a bomb has gone off in the middle of our lives and there’s no way to fix everything that is now so broken.
She and I were quite different but that’s probably what made our relationship work. She was so sociable and had many friends where as I am the complete opposite. I don’t know how I’ll ever pull myself out of this dreadful place and some days I don’t know if I want to. It’s a monumental challenge just to get out of bed in the morning.
I hope that somehow time will make things feel better but I really don’t have much faith that it will.