I was full time carer for my grandmother 93, she passed in december, days before xmas, I was there and think the shock and the enormity of it all took over, fast forward to July and my father in law passed and again, I was there and now the world looks different. I dont seem to care about many things any more, I have no motivation, no fear, Ive seen death and so nothing else will ever scare me or be that profound, so problems seem trivial and I dont seem to be me any more, its hit me harder than i ever imagined and im not sure ill ever be the same again.
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I’m so sorry to hear about your grandmother and father-in-law, @Rach43. You’ve been through two losses in a short space of time so it’s understandable it’s had a big impact on you. It might be a good idea to have a chat with your GP about how you’re feeling if it’s bothering you.
I’m sure the community will be a support to you, too - I’m giving your thread a gentle bump, hopefully someone will be along to share their thoughts.
Take good care,
Seaneen
The death of a loved one puts a lot into perspective. It is also what I call a “horizon shift” where absolutely nothing in life is the same, not will it ever be. There is also the realization that so much of what we thought was important is just trivial nonsense.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Much love.