I lost my father 9 months ago, to a short diagnosis of cancer, it all happened so quickly.
I never thought something would impact me so much, in almost inexplicable ways to those who have not experienced it. So in many ways, apart from my family, I feel very alone in grief.
Soon after, I hit the ground running to progress my life in any way shape or form, I got a new job, had a long distance boyfriend who I travelled with but it was all surface happiness, I wasn’t coping. I’m 24 years old and so although there are plenty who have experienced this loss, I still feel so young and mouldable, my dad was my guidance in life and now I feel lost.
My relationship that almost distracted me for 8 months from truly grieving has now come to an end. Although I did not share everything detail of my grief with him (we were fairly new when my dad passed). He supported me and it has still left another gap in my life, the person who supported and chatted to me each day, and checked in, isn’t there anymore.
I’ll add that I have a loving family, although we are each dealing with our grief, we come together and talk of my dad fondly.
I don’t want to admit I’m really struggling or lean on them/anyone for support all the time.
I guess I’m hoping to find people that understand this pain and rawness I still feel, even after time has passed and life is moving on.