I haven’t been on her for a few weeks as I felt I was beginning to find my way through my grief. However today is my first father’s day since losing my Dad suddenly in January and so I find myself back on here trying to find out different ways people cope with days like today.
I have tried to completely shut myself away from the outside world (especially social media) but have found it quite isolating…so I went for a walk and tried listening to music, I went to do the grocery run and petrol run and I have just generally tried to keep myself busy but nothing is helping to take away the pain and hole that is left within me.
I have had text messages asking how I am doing but I don’t want to answer them honestly as I don’t want to drag them down with me or for them not to enjoy their day as they all still have their Dads or are Dads of their own.
I just want today to end…to say I am struggling is an understatement!