I haven’t been on her for a few weeks as I felt I was beginning to find my way through my grief. However today is my first father’s day since losing my Dad suddenly in January and so I find myself back on here trying to find out different ways people cope with days like today.
I have tried to completely shut myself away from the outside world (especially social media) but have found it quite isolating…so I went for a walk and tried listening to music, I went to do the grocery run and petrol run and I have just generally tried to keep myself busy but nothing is helping to take away the pain and hole that is left within me.
I have had text messages asking how I am doing but I don’t want to answer them honestly as I don’t want to drag them down with me or for them not to enjoy their day as they all still have their Dads or are Dads of their own.
I just want today to end…to say I am struggling is an understatement!
I empathise fully !!! I’m only recently bereaved too and today is he’ll…every day is bad but today especially so…and the mad thing about it is that it’s a manufactured day but our feelings aren’t so
I knew it was going to be hard today but didn’t realise how hard…even when I was out I couldn’t unsee all the Dads and their children and families etc which just made me realise I’ll never have that again!
I could have written this - I felt exactly the same today. My first one without my dad.
I felt very alone my brother said he was treating it as just another day and couldn’t understand how he could do that.
I didn’t know what to do with myself nothing I did made me feel any better.
Thanks for sharing nice to know it’s not just me.
I read this and it was like someone was reading my mind.
My Father passed away in January so this was the first Father’s Day without him and it was harder than I imagined.
I couldn’t face shopping for all the Father’s Day paraphernalia, I didn’t let anyone know I was struggling and thought I’d just get on with it. In hindsight I should’ve told people sooner as once I did, it made me feel that little bit better to even just offload how I felt.
I totally understand how you were feeling.
It was my second Father’s Day without my dad.
Last year I was fine but this year I found it very hard.
I went to his grave and laid his favourite flowers (white roses).
I thought about him a lot, of course I do every day but more on that day.
I write letters to him to cope with my grief so wrote a letter and cried.
That gave a little bit of relief.
You have to go through.
Now I’m okay.
